我终于都写完了!!!!!!! 会慢慢的贴出来~~~
(48)Laurina was excited when she heard his comments, and she nodded her head very slowly and said “Leon, thank you very much for your love….I… Um……… have special feelings on you too…. But I am not sure whether this is love or not……”Leon was excited to hear Laurina’s comment, and he said “Do you dream of me or think of me when you have time?”Laurina said “Yes…. Sometimes…..So you are saying that I like you too, Leon?”
Leon kissed Laurina’s hand gently and said “Well, it seems that you do, my sweetheart…So, will you give me this opportunity to love and protect you?”Laurina hesitated and said “Yes, I will give you an opportunity….But don’t push me hard though… Ok?”She felt very embarrassed when she finished her words, and she tilted her head down to wait for Leon’s reply.
Leon was definitely excited to hear her reply, and he slowly held Laurina’s head up and whispered “Thank you so much for giving me this opportunity, Laurina… I promise I will try my best to love and protect you from now on….. Oh, I am the happiest man in the world!!!”He then kissed Laurina on her cheek, and they walked very happily afterwards.
When Laurina reached home later in the evening, she took out her mom’s diary once again and saw the following:
8 January 1987 (Rainy Day)
Today is Laurina’s 1 year old birthday! Wow, life has been very amazing since her birth.Both Ryan and I were having such a good time to see the growth of our daughter.Just witnessing her progressive growth is very enjoyable… I remembered Laurina started to grow her first tooth when she is ½ year old, and now, she already got up to 10 teeth.My dear daughter is really adorable, and she laughed very often.
Sometimes I told myself that I can’t wait to see her grown up into an adult.
10 July 1987 (Sunny Day)
Today when I woke up, I saw that Laurina has already opened her big eyes.I smiled and held her up from the baby bed.When both of us have finished brushing our teeth, I put her on her normal chair as I would like to prepare her breakfast.
As soon as I finished her breakfast, I turned my back immediately and try to walk over to her chair.But I noticed that she was not sitting there, I was scared at the moment as I don’t know where she is.Recently, Laurina has become a toddler and she will just move around the house unexpectedly.When I walked into the family room, I noticed that my right foot was being held by something.I looked down and saw that Laurina was standing beside me!Oh my god, my daughter is walking already!!!!I was very happy to see her walking, and she smiled very loudly when I held her up.
幸福的家庭到底可以幸福多久???
(49)2 September 1988 (Sunny Day)
Today is Laurina’s first day of school!!!Wow, both Ryan and I were so excited this morning, and we were planning to go to school with her together.When we woke up, we saw that she has already got up from her bed.I smiled to her and said “Laurina, are you ready for school today?”
She laughed and nodded her head very happily.Both Ryan and I were surprised to know that she is indeed excited to go to school.When I picked her up from school in the afternoon, she told me that she has already known a few classmates already.I asked her whether school is fun or not, and she nodded and said “Yes”.
In the evening, both Ryan and I taught Laurina that she has to behave like a good girl anytime and she cannot shout, throw and cry during class time.She told us her teacher said that she is a good girl today, and she should do that every day.I really hope that Laurina will become a good student and have a bright career in the future.
30 May 1989 (Sunny Day)
Today is our big day!!! We have moved into a bigger apartment as a result of Ryan’s promotion.We have spent a lot of times lately to look for a suitable apartment, as we would like to let Laurina go into one of the better kindergartens in the area.When Laurina arrived at the new apartment, she was very excited to know that she has her own bedroom.I told her that she should be a tidy girl from now on, and she cannot mess up her room anytime.
When we have settled everything, it was already at night.Laurina felt asleep as soon as she finished her dinner, and Ryan held and put her into bed a minute later.When he went back, he held me from my back and whispered “Kiki, do you think we should have another baby in the near future?”I replied him “I hope so…. I want to give birth of a baby boy; however, I didn’t get pregnant at all for the past few years….I am feeling so disappointed…..”When I was beginning to cry, he kissed me and said “Kiki, that’s ok….We can work harder to have a baby boy together…..”
I am wondering – are we going to have a son?
28 December 1989 (Snowy Day)
Recently, I saw that Ryan got tired very easily.In addition, his appetite has been dropping very much.I felt very sad when I saw him eating less food, and at night I asked him “Ryan, are you ok?How come you seemed to lose a lot of weight and appetite lately?I worried about you very much…… 5555555555” He said that he was too busy on his work, and he should be ok.
But......... is he lying to me???
我家可怜的王大哥呀~~~ 哭死了...........
(50)19 February 1990 (Windy Day)
My nightmare has finally arrived today……
When I woke up this morning, I saw that Ryan has already got up from bed.When I went out from the bedroom, I saw that he was sitting on the couch with his hands covering his abdomen.He seemed to be suffering from severe pain, and I hurried to go over there to take a look at him.
When I went closer, I saw that his face has been turning very pale.I asked him “Ryan, what happened to you? How come you look so pale & fragile now? Are you ok?”He gave me a weak smile and said “Kiki, my stomach is not feeling well now…. Do you mind pouring a glass of milk to me?”
When I heard his request, I hurried to go to the kitchen and gave him a glass of milk.He drank it very slowly, and all of a sudden, he coughed very heavily for a minute or so and then I saw that he was throwing off some blood.I screamed out very loudly, and I saw that he has fainted beside me.I shoveled him for a few times, but he was motionless!!!
Immediately I dialed 911 and the police operator told me that an ambulance will arrive at my place very soon.Then I called up Clara, and she told me that Tom & her will come over to my place within 10 minutes.
When Clara & Tom arrived, they found me crying so helplessly besides Ryan.Then they helped me to take care of Laurina so that I can rush to the hospital with Ryan together.After diagnosis at the Emergency Room half an hour later, the doctor said that Ryan got a serious stomach ulcer and he should stay in the hospital for some further checking today.
I hope that Ryan will be fine, as our family needs him so desperately…..I can’t live without him…. 555555555555555
21 February 1990 (Rainy Day)
Yesterday I have spent my whole day in hospital with Ryan.He got so many testing to do, but in order to show my full support, I have decided to accompany with him all the times.Even though he seemed to recover a bit, he still looked very pale and fragile.
As Ryan’s test results will be released tomorrow, I definitely think that tomorrow will very likely to be our big day.Hope he is going to be all-right……………….
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哭死了~~~
(51)22 February 1990 (Rainy Day)
I guess I am speechless now……All I can do now is to pray to the god that Ryan will be all-right from now on….But…. Will god listens to my pray?
This morning when I went into Ryan’s room in the hospital, I saw that our doctor was already there waiting for me.He told me that he needs to talk to us, and I knew that Ryan must be having some health problems.
When Ryan and I have settled in his office, our doctor told us that the test result has been delivered to him this morning, and Ryan has been diagnosed with stomach cancer.I was stunned when I heard it from the doctor, and he went on to say that Ryan’s cancer was a hereditary case – which means his ancestors have a past problem of stomach cancer.I started to cry when I looked at Ryan, but he was very calm to receive his diagnostic report.
The doctor also told us that Ryan was having a second stage of stomach cancer, and he should proceed to chemotherapy to kill off the cancerous cells on his body.As I heard that chemotherapy was having a lot of negative side effects, I really scared that Ryan won’t be able to cope with it.But then Ryan spoke up firmly and told the doctor that he is ready for chemotherapy and it should begin as soon as possible.
When we went back to his room, he told me that he’s got to fight against the battle as he don’t want to leave us so early.I covered his mouth with my hands immediately, and I told him that he cannot mention anything about it from now on.He then hugged me and said “Kiki, don’t worry….. I am going to be fine….. Let’s fight the battle together, all right?”
I smiled and said “Of course I will fight the battle with you, Ryan… cos’ I have to live with you for at least 50 more years…. Haha….We have to see
the growth of our grand children together….”
But in my heart, I don’t think I can laugh at all….My intuition told me that our battle is going to be hard and tough………
28 March 1990 (Sunny Day)
Ryan has been undergoing the chemotherapy for a month now, and his body starts to show some side effects.He has simply lost a lot of weight recently as he wasn’t been able to eat much for the past month.
On the other hand, Ryan has insisted to go to work every day and quite luckily, his boss were sincere enough to decrease his workload.His colleagues were nice to him as well, and we all hope that he will be successful to combat the battle against cancer!
不记得发文的说~~~
(52)26 September 1990 (Sunny Day)
Ryan has been undergoing with his second chemotherapy lately, and I was very much worried about his health.He has been experiencing with frequent nausea and vomiting, and the doctor has given him some drugs to lower his side effects.I can clearly see that Ryan’s health has been getting much worse recently, and I have decided to meet with his doctor today.
When I saw his doctor in the afternoon, he told me that Ryan’s progress is not optimistic and it seemed that the anti-cancer drugs cannot kill the infected cells.I was very depressed when I heard the advice from our doctor, and he told me that Ryan is required to undergo a series of test to re-determine his stages very soon.
20 October 1990 (Sunny Day)
Recently I felt very bad as I thought that I have neglected Laurina a lot.She is such a nice daughter, and although she is young, she seemed to know that her daddy is very sick and she never cried or complained to me.I am grateful that I have such an understandable daughter, and this morning, I promised her that I will find some time to play with her.
When Laurina got off from school this afternoon, I gave her a surprise that I went there to pick her up.She was excited to see me when she went out from her classroom, and she asked me where is Aunt Clara.Clara has been very helpful and considerate as usual, and she has helped me to take care of Laurina ever since Ryan has become sick.I told her several times that I don’t know how to thank her, and she just held my hands and said she’s willing to help us.I guess that is what a real friend is, haha, I am so lucky!
30 November 1990 (Windy Day) – Part I
How come god gave me such a cruel reality???I spent a lot of times tonight to think about all the things that I did since my birth, and I found that I didn’t do anything bad at all.So how come I have to face death so early?
This afternoon, Ryan and I went to the hospital to meet with our doctor again.Ryan finished a series of clinical tests two days ago as he has undergone the chemotherapy twice already.So I guess the doctor will tell us on the result of the tests.When we were seated, the doctor slowly took out the reports and said “Ryan, all of your test results were back yesterday…..and…. from the result, it clearly shown that the anti-cancer drugs didn’t meet our expectations and they didn’t kill off your cancerous cells….Um….. In addition, I am sorry to tell you that your cancerous cells have spread to the lower part of your body already……..In other words, we can’t do an operation anymore to remove the infected organs….”
再发多一篇哦~
MARY, 我是不会打你的. 放心吧~ 写中文, 恐怕还要多等我几年的呀~~~(53)
30 November 1990 (Windy Day) – Part II
I jumped up immediately and said “Dr Wang, what do you mean by that?Are you saying that Ryan is going to die very soon?”Dr Wang stared at us and said “Since Ryan’s infected cells have been spreading to the adjacent organs already, we can’t ask him to do chemotherapy or surgery anymore…. So I guess, Kiki, all you need to do now………Um……. is to spend your every moment with Ryan and try to give him a lifetime memory until the day he passed away….I know my words are very cruel to you now, but that’s what I can advice you…..”
I guess I am too devastated at the moment, and when I tried to stand up, I felt that my body was running out of energy and I simply lost my consciousness.When I woke up a moment later, I saw that I was resting on a hospital bed.I saw that Ryan was sitting beside me but he was looking at the windows blankly.
I went down from the bed and hugged him gently for a minute, and slowly said “Ryan, I don’t think I can live without you…… So if you are going to pass away soon, can I go with you? 55555555” He seemed to be motionless for a minute, and then he said with his shaky voice “Kiki, life is harsh for us….. I don’t know what to say now……But you can’t leave this world until Laurina grows up, gets married, and witness the born of our grand children!How can you ignore her presence?”He then walked away from the room quietly.
15 December 1990 (Snowy Day)
I have not overcome the fact that Ryan will be leaving us soon.Ryan neither as well.He has been locking himself very much on the den after work lately, and he refused to let me stay in the room with him.But do you know how much I am in love with you?I want to see you in every single minute!!!Don’t you know that our times of staying together are getting less and less?
He has been losing some weight too, as a result of the lost of appetite.I saw that he has tried his best to eat most of the times, but he went to the washroom frequently to throw up afterwards.It seemed that his stomach was not able to hold any food now.How can a mature adult survive if he can’t consume any food?I felt so bad when I saw him suffered like that………
Recently I have started to get very tired as I was not able to sleep well at night.Every time I closed my eyes, I will see Ryan waiving hands and saying goodbye to me.This kind of feeling is very awful and frightening, and I just quietly came up from our bed and looked at him and cried.I don’t know whether he is sleeping or not, as he has always turned his back to me most of the night.
kk, i'm here~~~
well, ryan gg is so pathetic!!! i like diz new chapter not...T______T Originally posted by Freya at 2005-6-10 07:40 PM:
wow~~~~~~~~` u r so good at expressing the emotion of the characters. seriously, when i read the part about the doctor telling kiki ryan will pass away soon, my mind went blank for a sec there too...
hehe..... i'm shy now, freya..... but i don't think i did a good job in describing the emotion of kiki & ryan though.... hope i will do a better job next time...... ^^
to kelly: hey, you finally floated up.... so happy.... you must continue to response to my story in the near future la..... otherwise... hehe...... i feel sad for them too.... but...... i have no choice.... i promise you i will give both of them a good life next time!!! (54)
3 January 1991 (Windy Day)
Ryan’s health has been deteriorated very much for the past 2 months.He has quitted his job 2 days ago as a result of his poor health, and his boss was kind enough to offer us some money for his early retirement.I was very unhappy to receive this piece of news from him, but he told me that he would like to spend his remaining life calmly & peacefully with us.
I broke down once again, and he held me very gently and said “Kiki, I think I am not afraid of death anymore…. But I would like to help you recover your emotions… You seemed to have emotional breakdowns very frequently for the past few months, and I am afraid that you will not be able to face it directly if I leave you guys in the near future….Can you tell me what I can do for you?”I cried out once again, and I rested my head on his shoulder and said “Ryan, I still cannot face the reality……Every time I close my eyes, I will see you waiving & saying goodbye at me…..Do you know how scared I am?I cannot sleep at night, and I became very tired in the following day…. I guess that is why my emotion has been fluctuated so much for the past few months…..”Ryan hugged me very tightly and said “Oh, you should tell me earlier…. I didn’t know that you suffer this much….No wonder you look so tired lately….BTW, I think what we should do now is to live happily from now on, can you do that?”I nodded my head and said “I will try, Ryan…But you will help & guide me until I recovered, right?”He laughed and nodded his head.He then asked me to sleep on his shoulder, and I did fall asleep.
25 January 1991 (Sunny Day)
For the past few weeks, both Ryan and I have spent the times with each other very happily.We didn’t waste any moment being together, and we went to a lot of places.This morning, Ryan went to the cemetery with me.It was my first time to know that Ryan’s parents were rested on this cemetery, and he told me that he would like to live there when he passed away in the future.
I broke down once again when I heard his words, and Ryan just hugged me tightly.A few minutes later, I told him I will do that if he passed away in the future and he said that I have improved a bit.
Afterwards, we went to pick up Laurina at school.She seemed to be very excited to see both of us lately, and she said that she would like to go to school with us everyday.I saw that Ryan has spent a lot of times with Laurina recently too, and he often played with her until she went to bed.I hope that I can see this warm picture every day!
KK,你为什么不画一副王哥哥的画呢？
把你心中的王大哥画出来，加在文后边，图文并茂岂不是更好？
还有KK，我要住院做手术了，略略不会因为我失踪了，就把我的ID关上了吧？
还有KK，能写一篇古代武侠类的王大哥的小说吗？让王哥哥做一个大侠，这样就会有个美满的结局了吧？
汗…….. 我是沒有藝術細胞的…. 所以畫一副畫肯定是沒可能的~~~你要住院? 為什麼呀? 你放心吧, 管理員們不會刪你的ID的. 這個問題, 你可以放心~ 小E很快就會寫的~~~
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