8 December 1984 (Sunny Day)
Oh, today I have such a busy day! This morning, I got an interview on one of my job applications.I applied this job a week ago, and the job nature is to work on a fashion magazine company.The interview was going very well, and I am confident that I should be able to get this job successfully.
In the afternoon, I go to the wedding gown shop with Clara.When I saw Clara wearing the wedding gown, I have to admit that she looked indeed very charming.I think every girl wearing a wedding gown should be looking very good as well.Personally I hope that I will be wearing a gown soon, but on the other hand, I saw Ryan suddenly show up at the shop.I didn't know that Ryan will try out his tuxedo today, and Clara laughed and told me that she has invited him to come over this afternoon as well.
Clara then pushed me to try on the gown for my Maid of Honor, and when I have finished wearing it, she told me that I did look extraordinarily pretty.When both of us went out from the changing room, I saw that Tom and Ryan were changed to their tuxedos too.Ryan looked at me and said “Kiki, you......... Um......... look very pretty on this gown......”Tom also joined our conversation and said “Wow, Kiki, you just looked fantastic....... But my Clara looks fantastic too...............”
I was very shy at the moment, and I told Clara that she shouldn't pushed me to wear this gown.But then she said that she will not let me wear any gown other than this one.I laughed and pushed her to get ready for her wedding pictures.
While Clara and Tom were busy taking pictures, Ryan and I were holding hands to walk around the studio.Ryan told me that I looked very charming on the wedding gown, and he said “Kiki, I have a sudden anxiety of getting married with you a while ago....... Do you think we should get married too?”I knocked his head and said “Ryan!Your way of proposing marriage with me is very bad and unromantic!!! I am not going to accept it anyways..........” I then did a funny face to him and walked away.
Oh, I think Ryan will propose marriage with me very soon....... Haaaaaaaaa...........I can't wait to hear that...............
20 December 1984 (Sunny Day)
Hurray!!! This afternoon, I received a phone call from the fashion magazine company and the manager there told me that I was hired by the firm already! Wow, I was very excited about this opportunity and I called up Ryan immediately and he told me that he will celebrate it with me tonight!
Oh, we have such a romantic dinner in the evening.Ryan told me that since our job locations are very nearby, he can go to work with me as soon as I start my job.I gave him a big hug, but then he suddenly said that I became much heavier lately.I stared at him and said it was him who made me gain some weight recently, and he should be penalized.He laughed and gave me a new nickname of “gummy bear”.How dare him!!!
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25 December 1984 (Foggy Day)
Oh, Happy Christmas! Today I got a day off and I went out with Ryan to celebrate our 1st Christmas together.Isn’t it very amazing?We have been together for more than 2 years now; however, it is the first time that I can celebrate this holiday with him.
Home sweet home! I think I have fully adapted to live in Ryan’s home now, but I still got a bit timid to live with him.Although Ryan is such a gentleman, I still got some hesitation as I scared that he will enter my bedroom (previously his bedroom) anytime.But he has noticed my hesitation too, and he will knock at my room door when he would like to come in.
We then went home to have a private Christmas dinner, and Ryan was very nice to prepare our dinner again.When we were finished with our dinner, Ryan suddenly took out a small cake from the refrigerator and said we should take this opportunity to celebrate the holiday and for our new life.I made a wish in which I hope I can spend every Christmas together with him, and he hugged me and said he will remember my wish and try to do that every year.
28 December 1984 (Sunny Day)
Today is Clara’s wedding day.Both Ryan and I were very busy as we need to help out Clara and Tom.When I arrived at Clara’s house this morning, I saw that Clara was very timid and uncertain.I told her to calm down, and get prepared for Tom’s arrival.Getting married in a church is indeed very special, and I became teary when I saw Uncle Moses passed on Clara’s hand to Tom.
We were having such an enjoyable wedding banquet tonight, and everybody were very excited to see Clara to get married with such a good man.Uncle Moses suddenly approached me and said “Kiki, I have not seen you for quite some time now… I heard from Clara on your situation a few weeks ago, and I just want to say I am on your side… If you experience any difficulty, please feel free to talk to me…”I said thank you to Uncle Moses immediately, and then he kissed me on my hands and told me to be stronger and don’t worry too much on my future.
Before I left the banquet, I told Clara that I will find her when she returns from her honeymoon.I then asked Tom to take good care of Clara, and he nodded his head very heavily and promised me he will be a very good husband.
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31 December 1984 (Snowy Day) - I
Wow, I was very surprised when I got up this morning.Our place was so full of snow, and the radio channel just announced that all job holders should stay at home today and enjoy a day off! I was very excited about the news, and then I went out and saw Ryan was preparing our breakfast.
Originally I planned to quietly come to his back and gave him a morning kiss, but he has noticed me and he suddenly held me up and kissed me on my cheek.I laughed at him and said “Morning, Ryan…. Why you are cooking so early now, we can have another short nap…” He told me “No…. Your mom just called us a while ago, and she would like to visit us in an hour…”
I was so shocked to hear that my mom will come to visit us, and I started to get hurried to dress up and ate my breakfast.Ryan asked me to relax and calm down.Half an hour later, our door bell was ringing.I went to open the door and I saw my mom.My mom was looking a bit tired and weary, and she hugged me and said “Oh, Kiki…. You look so good recently, I am sure Ryan did give you a comfortable life here…”Ryan said hi to my mom and I poured a cup of tea for her.She then looked at us and said “Kiki…. Your dad is still angry at you now, so I guess you can’t come back home at this moment…” I replied my mom by saying “No, mom… I am not planning to come back home… I live very happily here with Ryan, in addition, I find quite a good job now…. I really enjoy my new life….”
My mom then said “Kiki, you are a girl… my dear…. I just can’t tolerate an unmarried girl like you to live with a guy all the times… Have you thought of your future with Ryan yet, my dear?”I felt very shy at that moment, and my face has turned red.I slowly said “Mom! Please do not complicate with our relationship… I live in his bedroom now, and he sleeps here at the couch…”
Ryan suddenly said “Auntie, I think I got your meaning…. I will solve out this problem very soon… Believe me, I really love Kiki and will try my best to give her a happy life from now on…”My mom seemed to be satisfied with his answer, and she stayed for a short while and then she left.
Ryan seemed to be very strange after my mom’s departure, and he kept on thinking for a few hours.Times flied by very quickly, and it was already dinner time.When I was prepared to cook, Ryan suddenly stopped me and said that we should go out for dinner tonight.
When we finished our dinner at the restaurant, Ryan said that he would like to go to the beach to have a short walk.The weather today is indeed very cold, and I shivered.Ryan noticed my coldness, and he held my hands very tightly in order to give me warmth.He then slowly said “Kiki…..Are you feeling better now?”I smiled and told him that I was ok.He then continued by saying “Kiki, have you really got your mom’s message this afternoon?”I stared at him and said “What? My mom? Did she say something special to us this afternoon?I did not notice anything….”
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31 December 1984 (Snowy Day) - II
Ryan slowly turned his head and said “Kiki…. Your mind is really simple, my dear….Your mom asked us to…….Um…….to……” I noticed that Ryan was acting very weird, and I said “to what?”When I was waiting for his answer, he suddenly leaned down and kissed me very eagerly and passionately.My mind has become fuzzy and I felt that my body was so full of heat after a few minutes.I tried to resist his great passion as I was feeling very uncomfortable; however, I don’t have energy to pull him off.When we were running out of breathe a while later, he let go of me and said “Kiki, your mom asked us to get married this afternoon… So, what do you think of this idea?”
I was very excited at the moment, and I looked at him and said “I….. Um….. don’t have any comments now…..Do….. Do you have anything to say to me, Ryan?”I was waiting for his proposal, and I will say “yes” immediately if he asks me.However, he became very quiet for a while.
Suddenly he did a funny face to me and said “Oh, Kiki…. Your face is getting very red now….. So I guess you do agree with my proposal tonight… hehe….”I stamped my feet and said “YOU!!! I didn’t say yes or agree on your marriage proposal at all… How dare you kidding at me…..”I was so embarrassed at the moment, and all I could think of was to run and try to hide myself up.
Ryan was originally running behind me, and he ran past me a minute later and said “Oh, my dear…. Stop crying please…. I was just kidding with you a while ago…. I didn’t mean to laugh at you…. I just don’t know how to start…..”He then hugged me and said “How dare I was…. Kiki, you can beat me up if you want to…”When I heard his words, I landed my fist onto his chest immediately.He leaned backward and said “Oooooh, so painful!!! Kiki, you hit me really hard…. I can’t speak and breathe now….. I am doing to die very soon….. 55555”
I heard that Ryan was coughing very heavily for a few minutes, and then I stepped into him and tried to see how he was.He suddenly held me and said “Kiki, please don’t leave me alone…… I don’t know if I can survive without you…. I promise I will love, protect and comfort you for my whole life….So, will you marry me and let me be your husband?”I felt very touched and said “Oh, I am sorry to hit you so hard…. Of course I will say “yes” to you…. I will not let anybody other than you to be my husband…”He then took out a silver ring from his jacket and put it onto my finger.
I was very delighted to know that we have finally settled on our marriage, and I have been waiting for this important moment for over 2 years now!!!Tonight I was too excited and I can’t get into sleep at all.Ryan was sleepless too, and he went into my room and we chatted for the whole night together.
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15 January 1985 (Sunny Day)
Tired….. Tired….. Tired…… I was getting very tired lately.All I was doing everyday was working and preparing for our wedding ceremony.Even though Ryan and I didn’t have lots of friends, there were indeed many things for us to arrange.Ryan and I have decided that we were not going to hold a banquet, since we didn’t have enough money for that.My mom was originally planning to give us some money, but both of us have turned down her sincere offer.
This evening, we went to the wedding gown company to look for a gown.I decided to choose a simple gown, with ivory in color.When Ryan saw me wearing the gown that I have chosen, he gave me an appreciated look.He then said “Kiki, good choice…. Your gown really suits you well, I like it very much…..”Actually I can feel that Ryan really loved my gown, as he kept on staring at me throughout our whole photo taking session.I have reminded him several times to concentrate on looking at the camera.Our photographer laughed at him and said “Ryan… Jesus Christ… I know that Kiki is looking extraordinary, but you don’t have to stare at her every single minute…. Just concentrate at looking at the camera, otherwise, we can’t finish all of the photos tonight…”
When Ryan heard the comments from the photographer, he was very embarrassed and he told us that he will concentrate on taking the pictures.Two hours later, both of us have finished taking the pictures and we were ready to go home.
31 January 1985 (Sunny Day)
I am feeling kind of mixed up lately… Is it because I am going to get married very soon?I can’t get into sleep at all, and Ryan told me that I have lost some weight again.He also said that he do feel very bad when I am skinny.
Oh, today is such a good day for me! I have finally received my wedding pictures with Ryan.Both of us loved the pictures so much, and I asked my mom and Clara to come in to have a look too.My mom was teary when she saw our pictures, and she said that I have finally become a mature young lady.
When I talked to Clara about the coming wedding ceremony, she laughed at me and said “Kiki, I can understand your worries very much… I act totally like you a month ago… But don’t worry, everything is going to be all right….”She also told me that she was pregnant already.I am so happy to receive her good news, and she said that she will continue her education until she graduates a few months later.I asked Clara whether she would like to have a boy or a daughter, and she said that she preferred to have a son.I laughed at her old-fashioned style, and she said that if I give birth to a daughter later on, then our kids can become a pair in the future.Personally I found this offer very strange, but Clara insisted on it very much…But who knows what will happen in our future???
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13 February 1985 (Sunny Day)
I went to Clara’s house early this morning in order to prepare for my wedding ceremony tomorrow.Clara gave me a warm welcome when I reached her house, and she hugged me and said “Kiki, finally you & Ryan will finish the long marathon tomorrow! I can’t wait to see the ceremony…. BTW, have you brought in your wedding gown and all other relevant materials with you?” I laughed and told her that I have checked everything thoroughly before I left Ryan’s home a while ago.
At night, my mom suddenly came to visit Clara and me.I asked her how come she came in so late, and she told me that my dad went home unexpectedly on his business trip.She then went on to tell me that she had already informed my dad on my marriage tomorrow; however, he didn’t pay any attention to it.
My mom told me that she will arrive at Clara’s house on time tomorrow morning, and she hugged and told me that I have to work hard to be a good wife.I promised her I will try my best, in addition, she also told me that I have to obey and compromised with Ryan all the times.
Before I went to bed, Ryan called me and he said that he can’t wait to see me tomorrow morning.I laughed at him, but actually I felt very warm on my heart.Finding a true love is not an easy task, but fortunately, I did it! I am so proud of him, and I hope that we will have an everlasting relationship.
14 February 1985 (Sunny Day) – Part I
Today is such a special day – it is the Valentine’s Day, but most importantly, today is also my wedding day! Wow, I will be celebrating the Valentine’s Day and my wedding anniversary with Ryan at the same day from now on! Haha……
Anyways, today is such a busy day for both Ryan and I.We got up quite early this morning, and he had to come over to Clara’s house to pick me up.We all have a lot of fun times to play with Ryan, and he was looking very embarrassed throughout the whole session.
When Clara and my classmates let Ryan into my room, I saw that Ryan was smiling very tenderly to me.I gave him a big hug, and he was very delighted to receive it.He then said “Kiki, I can’t imagine that we are getting married now… Oh, my dear, you are just looking absolutely gorgeous today!!!”I was feeling very shy at the moment, and Tom laughed at us and said “Ryan, don’t stare at Kiki like that….You can stare at her for your whole night, haha…”
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14 February 1985 (Sunny Day) – Part II
My mom then approached us and said “Ryan, Kiki is my only daughter… Right now, I will pass on the responsibility of taking care of Kiki to you… Please try your best to love & protect her from now on…”I saw that Ryan nodded his head slowly and said “Auntie, I will try my best definitely! Don’t worry about us…I am sure Kiki and I will have a good future together!”My mom smiled very happily and asked Ryan to start calling her “Mom” instead of “Auntie”.
Clara then urged us to get hurry to go to the church a minute later.When we arrived at the church, I saw that many people have already arrived.I started to get a bit embarrassed, but Ryan told me to get relax and enjoy the whole process.During the ceremony, both of us were very nervous and our voices became shaky when the priest asked us the most important question.When we have finished it, Ryan hurried and helped me to put on the ring and then he gave me a big kiss.Oh that was so wonderful!
I was very happy and relieved when the ceremony was over, and both of us were very busy to receive compliments from our family and friends.Suddenly I saw that Leon was approaching us, together with my mom.Then I saw that Leon took out his hands to congratulate Ryan, and then he turned his head to my side and said “Congratulations, Kiki…. I am so happy to see both of you get married today…Good luck and I will see both of you later!”My mom then told me that it was her who invited Leon to attend the ceremony today, and I thanked my mom for doing that.
When we went home at night, both Ryan and I were just exhausted.Although we didn’t hold a banquet, we did have dinner together on a restaurant.Ryan drank a lot of wines in the evening, and it seemed that he has lost his consciousness already.I have to thank Tom for giving me a hand, as I was unable to hold Ryan when we finished the dinner.Tom drove us back to our home, and he asked me to cook some ginger tea for Ryan tonight.
Before Tom left our home, he suddenly said “Kiki, enjoy your first night with Ryan…. Haaaaa…. But he is so heavily drunk tonight, so I guess you should watch him out…..”My face turned red immediately, and I told him “no kidding” on me and he should returned home now.
When I went out from our washroom after showering, I saw that Ryan was sleeping very peacefully.I then heard him mumbled “Kiki… I am so happy to get married with you today….. I have been dreaming of this for such a long time now….Do you know how much you meant to me………..”I was so excited to hear his words, but I was too tired and I have decided to sleep.
要特别谢谢PP给我的一些宝贵意见!!!!
(37)15 February 1985 (Sunny Day) – Part I
When I woke up this morning, it was already in the afternoon.Oh, I have such a long peaceful sleep.I haven’t experienced that for quite some time now.I felt that my bed is very warm and when I turned around, I saw that Ryan was staring at me very happily.Oh, I have forgotten that I was married already.How stupid I am! Ha………..
I then said “Good morning, Ryan…. How is your sleep last night?” He then put his hands on my waist and said “Sorry, Kiki… I didn’t mean to be so drunk last night, but please forgive me…. I swear I will not drink again in the future…”I laughed at him and said “I can understand that, Ryan…. Yesterday was our big day, but you know what, Tom was helping me to get you up on the bed last night…Fortunately we have his kind help; otherwise, I think you will be sleeping at the front door… Haaaa”
I found that Ryan was acting very strange throughout the whole afternoon and evening, and he seemed to stay very close to me.I tried to ask him what happened, but he was just staring at me very suspiciously.
When I was prepared to go to bed at night after finished taking a bath, I said good night to him and I went directly to the bed.He suddenly hugged me from my back and said “Kiki, do you think we are like a truly married couple?”I looked at him, and I saw that he looked very meaningful to me; in addition, he laughed very strangely.Oh, my god!!!Finally I knew why he was acting so weird today.It is because he would like to get closer with me!After I knew his initiation, I became embarrassed and my face & ear were starting to get red & hot.
Before I could think of how to answer him, he gently kissed my forehead and then he proceeded to kiss my lips.His kiss was very eager again, and it seemed that he would like to melt me together with him.I was starting to pick up his passion, and I replied him by giving him more passion and followed him more closely.All of a sudden, I found that my hands have already surrounded his neck and he seemed to be very excited on my rare passion.
He then held me up and put me onto the bed unexpectedly a few minutes later.He stayed on top of me and looked at me very gently, and whispered “Kiki…….. Kiki……..Kiki……..”Oh, I mean his voice is so soft and passionate and it made me so hot on my entire face.On the other hand, I felt that his breathe were getting hotter and hotter and his words were starting to become very much unclear.I touched his face gently and I thought that I have to obey and let him do whatever he would like to do on me.
Therefore, I didn’t answer him and instead, I took my initiation and kissed him deeply on his lips.I felt that his hands are beginning to move from my back onto my neck as we kissed.He suddenly murmured on my ear “Kiki, you have to tell me if you are feeling uncomfortable…”Originally I was planning to answer him “yes”, but all of a sudden, he was kissing my lobule of the ear, and I have simply lost my energy to speak up.
继续谢谢PP!
(38)15 February 1985 (Sunny Day) – Part II
His hands were starting to move badly again, and this time, they were landed on my collarbone and then proceeded onto my chest area.I became very nervous, and my body shivered automatically when his hands reached my chest.Ryan has noticed my reaction, and he stopped and said softly to me “Am I going too fast, Kiki? Sorry about that…”He then hugged me very tightly again as if I was very fragile.
I told him “No, Ryan….. I…….. I just………..Um…..” I never got such feelings before, and of course I am nervous!But deep in my heart, I really hope that I can get even closer with him….. When I thought of that, my face has turned red again……….
I saw that Ryan was trying his best to restrain his desire, but his eyes were just revealing his hope on me…I started to feel very sad on my heart, and I blamed myself for ruining our important moment.At that time, I have decided that I will do anything that will make him satisfied.
I started to put my hands around his neck again and told him “Ryan…… I will try my best to adapt to that…….. You….. You can just be gentle on me…. That’s ok….”When I finished saying that, my face has turned red again.Ryan stared at me instantly as soon as I finished my words.Frankly speaking, I felt very embarrassed on my words and I tilted my head down immediately in order to prevent him from seeing my stupid reactions.But I did glimpse him at once, and I saw that he was staring at me very anxiously and touched.
A minute later, Ryan said “Kiki, I love you……. I really love you………” and his lips have reached mine once again.I took a deep breathe, and I have decided to fully enjoy all of the enjoyments that he will bring to me.
And for our whole night, he has been very gently on touching my body.In addition, he asked my feelings and opinions continuously in order to make me relax and enjoy the moment.Although we were both very confused and naive on our important moment, we do successfully accomplish our task.Even though I felt very painful and uncomfortable during the process, I do feel very excited and fulfill on my heart.At that moment, I am so happy that I have finally become his real wife!
22 February 1985 (Sunny Day)
I found that my recent life at home is like a dream….Ryan treated me like a little princess, and he will never resist any of my offers and ideas.When I went home from work late, he will help out by preparing dinner.In addition, he will do housework and whatever when he is available.I think I have developed a sense of reliability on him, and he is my “super” husband!Haaaaaaaa…..
6 March 1985 (Rainy Day)
Recently I was feeling fatigue after work.Ryan noticed my tiredness as well, and he asked me whether my work has become very hectic or not.He told me I should quit my current job and stayed at home to be his housewife.I rejected his offer as I truly think we should both work hard in order to have some more financial securities in the future.
On the other hand, I noticed that my menstruation period has been delayed as well.I talked to Ryan about that, and he said that my tiredness made my body work poorly.Personally I think I may develop hormonal imbalance, as my mood was altered very much lately.I became moody very frequently during daytime, and my colleague said that I acted quite differently than before.
Ryan got me up to bed very early at night, and he said that I should stop every household work.I told him I really appreciate his kindness, and he said that he will watch me sleeping.
13 March 1985 (Sunny Day)
For the past few days, I was living in great horror.I have experienced frequent nausea and vomiting in the early mornings and evenings.Ryan observed my abnormal behaviors as well, and he asked me to stay at home to take some more rest.My mom came over to my home to take a look at me, and she said “Kiki, you look really pale today…. What happened to you, my dear?Ryan called me this morning, and his voice is very worried on your health…”I told my mom on my recent abnormal body conditions, and she said “Kiki, have you done any pregnancy test before?You look very much like you are pregnant though….”I was very horrified when I heard my mom’s comment, and I said “Mom, are you serious? Oh, my god….. We just married for a month, isn’t that a bit too quick?”
My mom hugged and told me not to worry too much, and she will ask Dr Chen to examine my body in a minute.Dr Chen came to my home a while later, and he told me that a pregnancy urine test is the most accurate tool to detect the hormone.He asked me to take more rest, and the result should be ready in one or two days.
15 March 1985 (Sunny Day)
Today is my big day! I talked to Ryan on my possible pregnancy 2 days ago, and he seemed to be very excited about it.He said that he will take a half day off this morning, and he will go to Dr Chen’s office with me.
Dr Chen was congratulating me as soon as I stepped into his room, and Ryan was very excited about it.I was having such a mixed feeling, as I obviously not ready for pregnancy yet.When I planned to persuade Ryan for possible abortion, he said that we can’t kill our innocent baby.He has successfully persuaded me to keep our baby, and he said that we should work harder in order to give our baby a comfortable life.
It is so hard to imagine that I will become a mother 10 months later!