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17 July 1984 (Sunny Day)
I have been trying my best to ignore my father for the past one or two months after that incident.In addition, I haven't really chatted with him since then.I knew that he must be very sad and angry for my misconduct now, but I thought I have to carry on with my decision until I declare my victory.On the other hand, my mom has been trying her best to help me to persuade my father but it seemed that she hasn't been successful as well. Oh, it is going to be a long and hard-fought battle for sure!
31 July 1984 (Rainy Day)
Another two weeks went by! Oh, I found that living at home is no longer interesting for me! I was very bored recently, as I was still ignoring my dad.For the past few days, I started to lose my appetite and basically I don't want to eat anything.My mom went in to my room very frequently, and she said that I looked very pale and weak.She cried a lot recently, and she always blamed herself for not able to help me.I told her it is not her fault, and she has already done a very good job in persuading my dad.
In the evening, my dad came to my room to look at me.He looked very tired when he came in, and he told me that I should start to eat food, otherwise, I have to enter the hospital to have a thorough body check.I told him that I don't have mood to eat, but I will start eating when I feel hungry.All of a sudden, I found my dad is like a stranger and we can't find any common topics to talk about.Before he left my room, he suddenly told me that he will be away on an urgent business trip tomorrow and he won't be back until the mid of August.
As soon as my father left, my mom entered my room once again.She whispered to me saying that “Kiki, your father will be away on a business trip tomorrow..... Probably you can go out to see Ryan during his absence..... But the first thing you should do now is to eat and have a proper rest.... Otherwise, I am scared that you will not be able to go out....” I looked at my mom and said “Mom..... I really love you, and you really know what I am thinking now...... Yes, I would love to see him for sure.....” My mom laughed and said “Of course I know you well, my dear..... How can a mom not knowing her son/daughter well..... Ok, let me cook some food for you now......” I smiled to my mom and I told her that I will eat it all for sure.
I then called up Ryan, and he was very excited about our meeting as well. Oh god, I can't wait to meet with him again!
<To be continued>
[此贴子已经被作者于2004-11-15 13:01:10编辑过]
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2 August 1984 (Sunny Day)
After one full day of rest, I think I am ready to go out today!I called up Ryan, and I told him that I am going to visit him this afternoon.He seemed to be very excited, and he told me that he will get off from work earlier.Originally I planned to cook some food and bring it over to his home.But then I decided that we should cook together, as it is more fun.
When I was ready to leave my house, I went to my mom's room to see if she is ready to go out with me or not.But then she told me that I can go out to his home by myself, and she trusted Ryan that he is a gentleman.I was very excited on the news, and I can enjoy a romantic dinner with Ryan.
When I arrived at his home, he was already back from his work.He gave me a big hug, and said “My dear, I am so glad to see you again! Oh, I missed you so much..... How come Auntie is not here today? Isn't that she is coming with you?” I laughed and said “Hehe..... My mom said that she won't come in tonight to bother us and we can have a private romantic dinner!In addition, she said that she trusted you a lot......”Ryan smiled devilishly and said “Wow, I am so surprised that Auntie trusted me a lot...... but.....I have never declared that I am a gentleman though..... Well, just let me think of what I am trying to do now.......”He suddenly bent down and gave me a deep kiss, oh man, I really enjoy it very much.I certainly hope that the clock will stop here now, and we can spend the rest of our life together like this.But then he ended our kiss and said “Oh, I have had enough tonight...... Kiki, think of something to do...... I don't want you to leave my home so early.....”
I then laughed and said “Ryan, why don't we go to the supermarket now.... We can cook together tonight! But I am not a good cook though.......” He replied me by saying “Oh, man...... You have got to learn cooking for sure...... If you can't cook, then who will cook for me the rest of my life?” I nodded my head and I promised him that I will learn cooking tomorrow.
When we were back from the supermarket, it was already half past eight.We spent a lot of times at the supermarket discussing on food, and Ryan seemed to know a lot of stuff on food.While I was trying to figure out whether he is a better cook or Leon is a better cook, he has already brought out the food to the dining table.
Oh, I was surprise to find out that Ryan is a good cook as well.I laughed at him and said “Ooooh, Ryan, I am so glad to know that you are such a good cook..... I think I won't learn cooking tomorrow, as I am definitely sure that you will be more than happy to cook for me in the future..... Am I right?” He squeezed my nose and said “Oh, that's my pleasure....I am more than happy to serve you, my little princess”
Before I left his home, Ryan hugged me and whispered to my ear “Kiki, your birthday is coming up......How would you like to spend the day with me? Why don't we go diving together?”I was very happy about it, and I said “Ok, no problem”.
<To be continued>
[此贴子已经被作者于2004-11-22 13:30:44编辑过]
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10 August 1984 (Foggy Day)
Today I went out with Ryan again!!! Oh, going out with him is definitely enjoyable for me.This evening, we went out to have dinner and then we have decided to watch a movie.Ryan is such a big movie fans, and he seemed to know quite a lot of information on movies.Throughout the whole movie section, he kept on explaining the filming techniques and things that the director of the movie is good at.I thought I have learnt a lot from him.After the movie, we went to the park to have a walk and then he sent me to my home.
When I arrived at home, my mom went to my room and said “My dear, how's your meeting with Ryan today? As your birthday is coming up, how are you going to celebrate it?” I told my mom “Mom, Ryan will bring me to go diving on my birthday.... Then we will have dinner and stuff like that..... But I will go back home to celebrate it with you too.....” My mom laughed and she told me that she will wait for me.
17 August 1984 (Sunny Day) - I
Today is my 21st birthday!!!Haha....... I got up early this morning as I have planned to go out with Ryan – he applied for a day off today so that he can spend the whole day with me.When my doorbell rang, I went to open the door for him.He smiled very cheerfully and said “Happy birthday, my dear Kiki..... Have you finished your breakfast yet?” I laughed and said “Thank you so much for spending your whole day with me, Ryan.....I am sure that I will enjoy the rest of the day very much...... Yes, I have already finished my breakfast and we can go out now.....”My mom laughed and she said that she will wait for me tonight.
We went to the beach to go diving first.Oh, the weather is so good today and it is very ideal for divers to go diving.Today is my first time to go diving, that's why I have asked Ryan to teach me some diving techniques before I proceed.When I went out from the dressing room, I saw that Ryan's face has turned red.I asked him “Ryan, are you ok? How come your face is so red now?” He stared at me and whispered “Kiki, you just look so great when you wear a swimsuit.....Your figure is just.......... just............ unforgettable......” I nodded his head and said “Hey, you listen up...... I really hate to hear such disgusting comments, and you should turn your attention to teach me how to dive from now on....... If I see you staring at my body again, I will beat you up!!!” He seemed to be scared when I told him that, but he did shift his focus on teaching me diving.
Oh, diving is indeed very fun though and both of us have such a good time playing that.When we returned Ryan's home, it was already half past six.He then asked me to sit down and watch tv, and he will prepare our dinner.My birthday dinner is so romantic, and during dinner, he took out a small box and passed it to me.He said “Kiki, Happy Birthday again...... This is my birthday gift for you, and I really hope that you will like it.....” I opened the box and saw a silver necklace, and I told him I love it very much.He then helped me to wear my necklace, and then he took out a small birthday cake.I told him that my wish is to be with him forever, and he gave me a gentle kiss and then he sent me back home.
Before I left his home, I told him that I will try my best to come out to see him and he said that he will wait for me.
<To be continued>
[此贴子已经被作者于2004-11-27 10:06:43编辑过]
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17 August 1984 (Sunny Day) – II
When I just stepped into my house, I saw that both my mother and Leon were sitting at the family room waiting for me.I looked at him and said “Leon, how come you are at my home so late in the evening?” He replied me by saying “Kiki, I came here tonight to celebrate your birthday with you..... But unfortunately, you went out with Ryan.... Hey, you really have to keep in mind that we are going to get married soon..... So you better behave yourself and quit going with him all the times!”
I was very angry when I heard his comments, and I replied “Stop it, Leon! How many times I have told you that I don't like you.... It was you who told my father about your bullshit proposal..... Please listen up, I am not going to get married with you now, in the future, and forever!!!!”
He suddenly walked close to me and he held me really hard, and then I saw him try to kiss me! I slapped him hard on his face and I saw that he was very amazed that I refuse to let him kiss.My mom then said “Kiki, you sit down and shut up first..... Leon, I am so sorry that Kiki slapped you a while ago..... She owed you an apology..... But Leon, your action a while ago was just unacceptable..... I know that you like Kiki so much, but you can't just do whatever you want to her..... You have to ask her permission; in addition, you have to understand her behavior....You know that Kiki is not a wild girl, Leon....”
Leon then stared at me and said “Sorry, Kiki...... I think you didn't know how valuable you mean to me yet..... I haven't seen any girls who have such a competitive behavior before, that's why you are so attractive to me..... When I saw you went out with Ryan a while ago, I was really pissed off..... I feel so jealous on him...... Every time when I knew that you went out with him, I felt really hatred..... I can't imagine if I see you get marry with him in the future.....”
I told him “Leon, I really don't know what to say now..... Can you just let us go? I love him, and I would like to spend the rest of my life with him..... I can't imagine life without him......If you like me deep in your heart, I am sure that you can forgive us.....”
He then jumped up and shouted to me “No, I can't let you go!!! You are mine, and you do not belong to him..... Nobody can own you, except me!” He then ran away from my home and disappeared from the dark.
Generally speaking, I think I have quite a memorable 21st birthday.Although I am having problems with Leon, I do enjoy my day with Ryan very much.I know that problems are ahead of me now, but I know that Ryan will be standing beside me all the times!
<To be continued>
[此贴子已经被作者于2004-12-6 13:27:06编辑过]
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16 September 1984 (Foggy Day)
Another month went by...... I still have not got a chance to speak with my father on my decision yet.
On the other hand, I almost forgot my study.This year is my final year at University, and I really hope that I can graduate successfully.If I can graduate successfully, then I can come out to find a job and probably move out.So, I really need to work hard on all of my subjects and assignments.
When I entered my class this morning, I saw that Clara was looking at me very shy.I walked closer to her and I said “Clara, how come you look so shy this morning? Got anything special to tell me?” She looked at me and said “Kiki, this morning Tom called me and he proposed marriage with me..... I don't know what I should do now.....”I was very happy to know that Clara will get marry soon, and I told her “Clara, do you like Tom? If you like him, then of course you should say “yes” to him!”
She then said “I like him very much, Kiki..... But don't you think it's too early for me to get marry with him? I have not finished my study yet........ That's why I am feeling so off now......”I laughed at her and said “Clara, I really envy you so much..... Even though I am in love with Ryan now, but I don't know whether I will have a good ending with him or not......Oh, love is so troublesome......”
Clara patted me on my shoulder and she told me that I will have a happy life together with Ryan in the future.
30 September 1984 (Rainy Day) - I
This morning I was woke up by Ryan's phone call again.He said that he missed me so much lately, and I told him I will try my best to squeeze out some time to meet with him.He suddenly said “Kiki, I have a half day off this afternoon..... How about if I come over to your school and have lunch with you?” I was very excited about it, and I told him I will meet with him at our cafeteria.
Meeting with Ryan is such an enjoyable task for me....... I went over to the cafeteria immediately when my class was over, and I told Clara that I will be having lunch with Ryan there.She said that she envied me so much, and she said she will have her lunch by herself.
When I saw Ryan, I jumped to him and gave him a big hug.I then took a look at him and I saw that he kept on looking better and better as time goes on.He also looked at me and said “Kiki, you look so charming....... My little princess, shall we have lunch now?”
<To be continued>
[此贴子已经被作者于2004-12-10 11:35:11编辑过]
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30 September 1984 (Rainy Day) - II
When we were just about to eat, I suddenly saw our president and two men coming into the cafeteria.I found out that both of the men looked kind of familiar to me, and I was very surprised to know that they were indeed my father and Leon.They were surprised to see me as well, and I saw that both of them were stared at Ryan in an unfriendly way.
My father and Leon, together with the President, then dropped by to our table and said “Hi, Kiki........ I am so surprised to see you here now...... How come you are having lunch with Ryan here?”I think the President has noticed our weird conversation, and he just looked at us very embarrassedly and said “Um...... Kiki, your father is such a generous businessman...... He just donated 5 million dollars to our University this year, and I am walking around the campus with him and his friend now.......”
My father then spoke up “Well, It is my pleasure to donate to your University, President Jenson.....My daughter, Kiki, always told us that your University is such a fine place to study and she surely cherished her moments here......But I am sorry to inform you that I have something private to talk to my daughter now, President Jenson...... I will ask my secretary to prepare the cheque to you very soon...... Thank you once again for your arrangements today!”
When the President left, my father and Leon sat down at the table and looked at us.I was very scared at the moment, as I afraid that my father will harass Ryan.But then Leon suddenly said “Kiki, you have not introduced him to me yet...... As we will be getting married soon, you should introduce all of your friends to me in advance.....Hi, I am Leon and I am Kiki's fiancé......”
I saw that Ryan was very angry, but he has tried his best to calm down himself.He replied Leon “Oh Leon, it is my pleasure to meet with you today...... Kiki told me everything between you and her before....... Thank you so much for adoring my little girlfriend for the past few years..... But if I am not mistaken, Kiki never agreed on your marriage proposal...... So, she is still my girlfriend now.....”
My father was looking very fiery when he heard Ryan's comments, and he told me “Kiki, I am really disappointed on you..... How can you go out with this guy for the past 2 years?”I looked at my father and said “Yes father, I have been going out with him for the past 2 years..... and I am planning to go out with him from now on, in the future, and forever......”I then held Ryan's hand and walked away from my dad and Leon.I am sure big troubles are coming up to me definitely!!!
<To be continued>
[此贴子已经被作者于2004-12-13 13:07:20编辑过]
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19 October 1984 (Foggy Day)
I was living in much horror lately....... Every time I saw my father at home, he gave me a very unfriendly look and he kept on shouting at me during dinner.He said that I have destroyed his upper class status, as I have been going out with Ryan continuously for the past 2 years.I felt very resentful on his comment, but I have tried my best to ignore him all the times.
I have spent very much of my time lately on my room, as I really need some personal time to think of the current situation.I was scared that I may make a poor decision, and I have urged my mom not to disrupt me.
31 October 1984 (Rainy Day) - I
Today is Halloween! Wow, time passed by really quickly for the past few years..... After my careful consideration for the past few weeks, I have decided to talk to my father on my decision within the next coming days.
When I was just about to step out from my room, my mom knocked on my door and told me that Leon will come to our house to have dinner again.I thought that would be a good timing for me to declare my decision tonight, and I told my mom about it too.My mom asked me to be patient, and she said that she will support me.
Once again, my dad went home earlier to wait for Leon and Leon did show up on time.We were having a quiet dinner at night, and each of us rarely spoke when we were eating.When the dinner was over, Leon spoke out and said “Why don't we go to the family room to have a short chat, Uncle Alex and Kiki?”My father then replied “Sure, no problem.... Kiki, come with us now........”
While we were seated on the family room, Leon suddenly held my hands and said “Kiki, I would like to hear your decision on my marriage proposal tonight..... I have been waiting for your answer for a few months already....I don't think I can wait anymore!” My father then stared at me and said “Kiki, don't tell me you are going to say "no" to Leon...... Leon is such a good kid, and I am sure he will be able to give you a very comfortable life in the future.....”When I was ready to speak up, I heard my mom saying that “Alex, please do not try to give Kiki so much pressure...... She is trying to make a lifetime decision, and we should respect and give her a few minutes to think about it......”
I gave my mom an appreciate look, and I started my words very slowly and gently.
<To be continued>
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31 October 1984 (Rainy Day) – II
I took a deep breathe and said “First of all, I have to admit that I have been spending lots of times lately to think of the current situation of me, Ryan, and Leon..... Finally I have made up my mind this morning.....”I stopped for a second and I saw that my parents and Leon stared at me very cautiously.
I then continued by saying “I think I have to say sorry to my father as I have decided that I would prefer Ryan as my choice, instead of Leon..... I know that daddy must be feeling very disappointed now, but I really need to thank you sincerely for providing me such a good living condition since my birth..... Leon, I need to say thank you for your love too..... I know you must be feeling bad on my decision as well..... If I have not met Ryan before you, I am sure I will fall in love with you.....But life is fateful, once you have met the destined ‘one’, you can't really get away from it...... I hope you can understand that it has nothing to do with you, and please do not feel bad on me & Ryan.....”
I saw that my father was absolutely in an angry mode, and he shouted at me by saying “Kiki, I really hate to see you insisted on going out with that poor guy...... Do you know how much money and time I have been spent on you?I know little girls like you always dream of puppy love, but you have got to be more practical..... Romance can't give you money, status, power, etc..... That guy will definitely not be able to give you anything!Do you think you can really adapt to his living condition?Don't be so foolish, my daughter......You still have time to re-consider about it......”
I instantly replied my father “No, daddy! I told you this is my final decision already, and I am not planning to re-consider about it.....In addition, I am your daughter, not your puppet.....It just seems like you would like to plan everything for me in advance..... I don't think I can tolerate it anymore!” Leon suddenly interrupted us by saying “Kiki, I can understand that you think meeting Ryan is your destiny, but I think we can still work out to see if we are a good fit or not...... In addition, Uncle Alex is correct...... We don't want to see you suffer in the future! So, please think about it once more.......”
I shook my head and said “No, I am not planning to lose Ryan at all..... Absolutely no way!!!” My father suddenly said in front of us “Kiki, you listen up...... I will not recognize Ryan as my daughter-in-law at all..... If you insisted to be with him, that's totally fine..... From now on, you are not my daughter anymore and please leave this house before tomorrow morning!!!I don't want to have such a daughter like you, and please do not call us for any financial assistance in the future!”
Everybody was very shocked to hear my dad's comment, and my mom was paralyzed and sat at the sofa.Leon was very astonished too, and he said “Don't joke like that, Uncle Alex...... It is not funny to joke like this!” At that moment, I realized that I did not misunderstand his meaning.I was utterly devastated, and I told myself I have to be responsible for what I said.
I then spoke out “Ok, daddy, I will leave home before tomorrow morning..... I am going to work hard outside, and hopefully I will have a good future with Ryan then......Mom, sorry that I will not be able to take care of you from now on..... Please take good care of yourself and I hope we will be able to meet in the future......”
When I finished packing up all of my personal belongings, I stepped into the family room and saw that my mom was still sitting there motionless.I gave her a big hug and said “Mom, please don't cry anymore...... I am old enough now, and I can take care of myself..... In addition, I believe Ryan will help me too.....”When I was prepared to leave my house, my mom suddenly asked me to give Ryan's telephone number so that she can call me in the future.
I then took a thorough look at the house that I have lived in since my birth, and I said “goodbye” to my mom.
Oh, I am so free now...... But am I happy?What will happen on Ryan and me in the future?I am wondering.........................
<To be continued>
[此贴子已经被作者于2004-12-17 9:38:16编辑过]
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1 November 1984 (Foggy Day)
As soon as I left my house, I called Ryan and told him everything that just happened to me a few hours ago.He felt very sad on me and said “Kiki, do you want me to go over to your place and explain to your father now?I think you really need to re-consider about it, as getting away from home is not a good thing for you to do at this stage! Furthermore, maybe your father's concern is right...... I may not be a good choice for you......”I replied him instantly “Ryan!!! Please don't talk about this issue with me now, I am just too tired to think about it......”He then said “Then what do you want to do now, my dear?I think I should pick you up and drop you off at one of the hotels in the city......”
I laughed very loudly when I heard his words, and I said “What? Ryan, you are planning to drop me off in a hotel? No, I want to live in your house..... I want to live with you!” He became a bit shy on his voice and said “Kiki...... Are you sure that you would like to live with me? We are both bachelors, and people will start to say rumors on us.......” I replied him saying “I don't care!!! What people say does not equal to what the reality is...... In addition, I can save some more money for our future...... So, are you coming over to pick me up now?”
A while later, Ryan did show up to pick me up.When I entered his home, I told him that he has to take good care of me from now on.Otherwise, nobody will do that.He suddenly said “Kiki, I know that you are feeling very sad now...... If you want to cry, please do so...... I don't want to see you trying to hold your tears...... Let me borrow my shoulders to you, my little princess......”I knew that I must be looking very sad at the moment, and I have decided to cry out to release my frustration and the uncertainty of our future.Ryan was trying very hard to comfort me, and he gave me a lot of paper towels when I cried.He told me that he will try his best to protect me, and he will never let me cry again in the future.
2 November 1984 (Sunny Day)
When I woke up in the morning, I found that I was sleeping on Ryan's bed.I turned my back but I didn't see him at all.I then opened the bedroom door, and I found him sleeping on the sofa.
As I have never lived with a young man before, I was quite curious on knowing how his life really is.Therefore, I leant forward to take a look at him.When I saw his face, I was very excited about it.He just looks like a child, a peaceful child indeed.I then touched his face gently, oh, his skin is very smooth and his eyes and nose are well built with shape.
When I have fulfilled my curiosity, I planned to step back to the bedroom.But then Ryan suddenly hugged me from my back and said “Kiki, what are you planning to do on me a while ago?” I was feeling very shy and I told him “Nothing........ I saw an ant on your face a while ago...... That's why I helped you to get rid of it.......” Ryan laughed out very loudly and said “Oh, Kiki, I think I will enjoy very much living with you from now on.......” Haha............. Me too!!!
<To be continued>
[此贴子已经被作者于2004-12-20 13:15:27编辑过]
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15 November 1984 (Sunny Day)
I have been trying my best to adapt to my new life for the past two weeks, and quite successfully, I really enjoy it so far.Ryan has been very helpful to offer me a free hand through my adaptation, and he has always noticed my wants.I think I will develop a home sensation very soon.
My mom called me this afternoon, and she told me that my father was still very angry at me.I told her that I have already adapted to my new life with Ryan, and I am not planning to return home.She said that she will give us some money to spend, but I refused her and told her that I will quit my school soon and look for a job.
This evening I talked to Ryan about my plan of quitting school.Originally he was strongly opposing to my plan, but I told him that I don't want to spend his money for my tuition.I then explained to him that I will try to find a job so that I can ease his financial burden.He said that I have been growing up very much lately, and I have become a mature young lady. Ohhh, I am so happy on his comment!!!
26 November 1984 (Sunny Day)
This morning Ryan and I went to quit school together.I felt very relieved about it when our registrar's office informed me that the process has been completed.We then went to say goodbye with Clara.
Clara felt very sad when she knew that I have to quit school, but on the other hand, she also told me that she will get marry with Tom next month!I laughed at her and said “Clara!!! How dare you! You didn't plan to invite me to your wedding ceremony? Oh, I am feeling so bad now....... My best friend didn't plan to invite me at all.......5555555555” Ryan laughed at me and he knew that I was joking with Clara.
Clara suddenly looked very embarrassed and said “Kiki...... Just calm down first..... I am inviting you now....... I...... Um....... agree with his marriage proposal last night...... So that's why I didn't inform you in advance....... But........ I am kind of hesitated now.........” I hugged her and said “Clara, I am joking with you a while ago........ Please don't take it seriously................ Ryan and I have to congratulate you now........ But hold on a second, am I going to be your Maid of Honor?”
Clara nodded her head slowly and said “Definitely! I will not let any person to do that except you....... Oh, Ryan, do you have interest to be our Best Man?”Ryan laughed and said “Sure, no problem........”Clara then told us that she will arrange a fitting for us as we need to try out the gown and tuxedo before the ceremony, and I hugged her again and said goodbye.
I was very excited to know that Clara is going to get married, but Ryan said that he would be happier if it is our wedding ceremony.I told him that he should give me a very warm wedding ceremony in the future, and he promised me he will do that definitely!
<To be continued>
[此贴子已经被作者于2004-12-22 13:44:23编辑过]